The Blogging Journey – Part 3

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Welcome to The Blogging Journey – Part 3.

To recap The Blogging Journey Part 1 – CLICK HERE or The Blogging Journey Part 2 – CLICK HERE

Blah.

It strikes without warning.

And it struck me today, while driving to my “day job.”

Blah.

Lately, I feel as though I am “wallowing” my way through life.

When I say “wallow” I don’t mean, “to live self-indulgently; luxuriate; revel: to wallow in luxury; to wallow in sentimentality” but rather, “to flounder about; move along or proceed clumsily or with difficulty: A gunboat wallowed toward port.” (Quotes courtesy of www.Dictionary.com.)

A gunboat wallowed toward port.

Just shoot me.

I feel as though I am floundering, and since this blogging journey is about “authenticity” I knew I needed to come clean, and share my tender emotions here, within these posts, with my peeps.

Both of you.

Remember in Part I, it was noted to “Begin with the End in Mind.” You need to know WHERE you are going in order to get there, but the road may not be a straight one. Or even a paved one for that matter.

I also recognize, everyone’s road is unique. And we cannot judge another person’s road unless we have traveled it ourselves.

I haven’t gotten very far on my journey thus far, and frankly have no idea what “the end of the road” looks like. I have a vision. I hope I can find a way to make it to the end of the road, but honestly the route can change 100 ways from Sunday before I arrive.

Regardless, I feel frustrated. Stifled.

As I have mentioned before, part of the marketing game is keeping your friends close, and the competition closer. When I study the competition (a virtual plethora of quality blogs) I grow weak in the knees. I feel unworthy. Inadequate. I wonder, will I ever make it?

Make it where, you ask? To the place in the road where I become the boss of me, financially speaking.

Why I am baring my frail and insecure soul?

Because this mini-meltdown is happening on this journey on this day.

For verification, take a gander at yesterday’s blog, where I equated my internal feelings to this sunflower and its low-hanging head.

How I feel lately

I marvel at successful bloggers and wonder, do they ever feel low? Did they ever wonder, “Am I going to make it?”

The bigger question at the moment, how do I beat the blahs? The answer may vary, but the concepts are similar.

Focus on what you can control = TODAY

Make a list and check it twice.

I make a daily task list of tiny little goals, things I want to accomplish today.

There is something magical about listing tasks on paper. And even more magical once you complete an item and cross it off. I don’t care if I have a SINGLE item on my list, I feel like a champion when I cross that little bugger off the list.

Reverse Bucket List

Recently while spying the competition, I read a “Reverse Bucket List” – the things said blogger has ALREADY accomplished. If I remembered her name, of course, I would give credit where its due. Please forgive my lacking memory.

Also, the accomplished concept came as a shock to my system. Instantly I was propelled back several years (feels like hundreds) to a job interview in which I was asked to “name my greatest accomplishment.”

Cricket…cricket…cricket…

My mind went B L A N K – I looked like a total buffoon. I could not think of one single thing. It was so bad, even the interviewer said, “Surely you can think of something.”

Nope. Nothing.

Needless to say, I didn’t get the job.

I will be working on the Reverse Bucket List, to prove to myself what I have already accomplished. I pray the list is plentiful.

Just Keep Swimming

If you have kids, you have seen the movie, “Finding Nemo.”  Forever reverberating in my subconscious is the scene where Dory the regal tang fish (voice of Ellen DeGeneres) with short-term memory loss, (more befitting than at first glance!) sings:

You know what you gotta do when life gets you down?
Just keep swimming
Just keep swimming
Just keep swimming swimming swimming

Sometimes, when life gets me down, it’s about all I can do to keep from drowning – to just keep swimming.

Keep pursuing.

Keep the end goal in mind.

Patience Grassahoppa

Patience is a virtue.

Virtually impossible!

I don’t care how many times, various ways or in what language this has been stated to me, it’s a concept  that does not compute in my brain.

Not being equipped with an adequate supply of patience is certainly a weakness, I recognize, but I think I’d rather be stuck in the gunboat, wallowing toward port than practicing patience. At least you can SEE the port.

They say, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.

God, I hope so.

This lack of virtue is the reason I drink wine. By the bucket load.

Moment of Gratitude

Since I have openly shared numerous character flaws, it’s nice to acknowledge something positive that I practice each day, faithfully.

Usually on my drive to the office, while staring off in the distance at the lovely Rocky Mountains, I look towards the sky, and say, “God bless us this day.”

I always feel a sense of calm wash over me as I offer thanks and recognize the many blessings in my life.

Deep sigh.

So, I suppose for today, I’ll just keep swimming.

I will worry about tomorrow, tomorrow.

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13 comments to The Blogging Journey – Part 3

  • […] This post was mentioned on Twitter by Katie Walters Blog, Katie Walters. Katie Walters said: What's a blogger to do? Just keep swimming… http://www.anauthenticlife.com/?p=3351 […]

  • Diane

    I am at the moment living advice I gave my daughters when they were growing up. I didn’t realize how many times I must have said it until recently and Toni was trying to raise her budget for Sustainable Roots, and Lee was quoting it to me too. “How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time!” As to patience dear, if you look back you will see your patience has grown, maybe not as much as you would like, but I am willing to bet having three teenagers has increased your patience way more than you realize! Keep going dear life is to short to wallow for long. But do allow yourself a good wallow now and then.

    • KT

      Diane,

      Oh, I know, I know…

      Obviously, this is a lesson I have yet to master. Although, I may wallow, not to worry.
      I’ll just keep swimming….

      ps – when are WE going to Jakarta???????

      KT

  • Deborah

    KT — just remember you are one fantastic woman, fantastic writer!! You at least are moving day by day towards a goal that means everything to you, a goal about who you are as a person, a goal that is your dream. No matter how slow you think this journey is going, just ponder back on how far you have come since the day the goal came into light in your mind — you really have come so far this year. You have blessed the lives of so many of us out here living through your eyes. We cry with you, we laugh with you, we relate to you in our own lives. For those of us that have not found our life goal yet, you keep strong for us so we can know it will happen in time for the rest of us. For now we have YOU!!! Keep swimming baby, keep swimming :)

  • sheri

    KT-We all go through these times, although so many of us are afraid to admit it. You will prevail with this exceptional goal !!! I do not know truely if you realize the scale of your talent. I read your writtings everyday and think to myself, OMG how does she write in such a way, as if she were sitting across the table from me ? This is not something we are all gifted with, however you ARE !!! I think this is just a small speedbump or possible wave, if we are still swimming. Tomorrow as you are driving to work and are looking upon those Georgeous Rockies, After your “God Bless us this Day” say “I am going to SWIM as long as it takes and please help us with the energy to do so”……Amen Muahhh !!!!!

  • Genevieve Kulaski

    Ideas from Life’s Lemons

    When life hands you lemons, make lemonade, and find someone who’s life has handed them vodka, and have a party!

    When life gives you lemons, make orange juice, then sit back and let people wonder how the heck you did it.

    When life hands you lemons Say, “Lemons? For me? Cool. Can I have some more?” Life will comply, as it is eager to give you lemons. When it does, exclaim, “Hey, everybody, look at all these lemons! I’m the luckiest man alive!” Life will eventually become bored with its game of handing you lemons, since you obviously aren’t going to play along, and will go off to find someone else to mess with.

    When life hands you lemons, pretend to “accidentally” drop one of them. When life bends over to pick it up, give life a major wedgie. Run away (without the lemons, of course.)

    When life hands you lemons, simply refuse to sign for them. Life’s lemons can’t be delivered without an authorized signature.

    Just wanted to add some fun inspiration and yes I do have the vodka when you need it!
    Love ya

    • KT

      you are the bomb diggity Gen!
      And, oh, I know where to go if I need a stiff drink!!
      It’s all safe in your house these days (at least from you!!)
      Paul Nation, well, he’s another story!!

      Love you too!!
      KT

  • Kristione

    KT’s Reverse Bucket List (as viewed from the inner circle)…….

    Don’t forget these wonderful things!

    Evolved a good marriage to a great marriage through work and commitment, respect and love
    Raised / is raising a beautiful, sweet young man
    Raised and provided love, support and a good female role model/mother for two step children
    Travelled the world and have seen/experienced many adventures the world has to offer
    Is a strong, smart, beautiful person
    Is a dear life-long friend to many people
    Is a dedicated sister and daughter
    Dreamed of becoming a writer, started a daily blog from scratch and is continually evolving her craft!
    Built a home from the ground up with her husband
    Started a new life in a new place, building a loving community around her
    Helped several businesses grow and prosper

    I could go on…

    Many huge accomplishments, my darling friend! Keep the vision going….life will deliver!

    /kk

  • […] last week, I wrote a blog post about my blogging journey and how I was feeling low, low, low. And I shared my inner-most insecurities with you, my gentle […]

  • Good advice! I often feel the same way about my blog, my photography, the book I’m supposed to be writing. Of course, I’m not one of those ‘quality’ blogs myself, which is probably why! But I just have to slap myself a few times, quit being so critical, and keep going, remembering the other reason I do it is for my own enjoyment. Sigh.

    • KT

      Barbara, seems it’s much better when we proceed along on our own path, and don’t get stuck in wrath of “look what she’s got!” Easier said than done, however.
      It’s all about the journey.
      KT

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